Beats In, World is Silent

I fucking hate one person in this world. The reason why I look the way I do. The reason I can’t trust. The reason why I can’t have problems in my relationship. It’s because of one girl. I trusted her and she cheated. I told her I loved her and she told me she didn’t mean it. Now I think every girl is gonna treat me like she did. I can’t win. I didn’t want to talk to you for one reason and it wasn’t for me. But I realize that you are a terrible person. You deserve whatever wrongful doing that was ever brought your way. You disgust me and you make me want to throw up. I never want to look at you again. Thanks again for messing up my head. Oh yeah and FUCK YOU.

I feel like you hide so much from me………but I don’t want to feel that.

listening to love faces and looking at pictures of chris. i miss you bro. 

We lost Chris. And when that happened. We all realized that life is too short. and it is. we need to stop fighting with the people. everyone that is in our life, is in it for a reason. I’ve had problems with close friends. I’ve had problems with my family. I’ve had problems with girls. i need to stop. these problems are pointless compared to what chris’s family had to deal with. Ive come to the conclusion that i have no enemies. I had problems with my ex, I’m done with those problems. I’ve had problems with my cousin, i have no problems with that, I’ve had problems with a close friend of mine, I’m done with that. i need to start thinking with an open mind. RIP Chris Reyes. 

Everything I see reminds me of you.

I still love my cousin. family is family. 

last post was just about friends. i didn’t forget Alexis Josephine Hall

Im glad that I fixed almost all my problems. Regardless of what anyone thinks of me and all that I’ve been through, Jillian Lopez is still one of my best friends. Jevon Pegues is always here like I’m always there for him. Whitney Dyer is always the one to give me logical advice. Raven Winters has the tough love. Antwan Coles sides with me 100% because he has been through the same thing i have, and Samantha Jo is always making me feel better. Ive lost a few friends not by choice but it happens in life. i wish i could go back but nothing will ever be the same again. but the people that will always be here for me and will always tell me the truth are here.